If there were a cure, if there were a pill, no matter the price, I would
do anything for a cure for Michael. I would trade my movement for his in a
NY second. I have run, walked in the snow, thrown a ball.  I have felt a
lover's kiss and been able to wrap my arms around my child.
These things certainly
will never be a part of my son's life. I know, I hear, and read
of the exceptions. What wonderful lives these people have led, things they
have done! Things that might still be in the cards for Michael, but I will not
hold my breath.  Such hope would be cruel for him and me.
I tell him he can do anything he wants to, but that is so damn little!!
I also believe if I asked him, "Would you like the cp to go away?" I can not see him
EVER telling me "No, it's who I am." It is not "him"!
CP was not our choice.  It is a by-product of something gone horribly wrong.
I know he would say "yes" to being able to feed himself once, to go to the
bathroom without a suppository, even to simply roll over.
I know this will offend some, but if there is a Devil, I would sell my soul
tomorrow, and go happily to Hell, smiling all the way, if he would take Michael's c.p.
away. After all, in a sense, I have been there already.
No God, no creature; no, not even Satan, would give us these trials to prove
ourselves better people in this life. If it is true that one pays for the
sins of the life before in the next life, then I sure had a good time last
time around....
Sorry, the insanity rides high here today.

Lori and the zoo
 

HOME To Dr. Mom
Mail to Dr. Mom

This page hosted by 
Get your own Free Home Page.

Updated Nov. 1, 1997